Recovering Memories

Today was the strangest day I've ever encountered. As soon as I awoke, Serlina was there, looking cute. We took a walk, and decided to head back to the house. As we entered the Library, a sudden pain swept my body. I've never felt anything like it in my life. Then, as we walked outside, a shadow arose inside of my head. It told me to go into a rage. After I refused, it posessed me! I had no control over my actions. I murdered the tax collector Will and his companions, and then collapsed. I eventually came to, but not without nearly giving Serlina a heart attack. I felt much better, but it bothered me greatly. No more than 10 minutes later, he was back. I can't explain what he does to me, he just does it. Before I knew it, I had my weapon pointed at Serlina. With one last effort, I moved my arm, along with my dagger, into my own gut. That was more than enough to take me out. Thanks to Serlina's care, I survived, although the recovery was slow and painful. I spent two days recovering in the Royal Stag. On the 3rd day, Doctor Fancy asked me if I would like to help her gain some cash. Of course, I obliged, and set off to meet her in Melbourne. It was quite a journey, but I enjoyed it. After we got her some dough, she offered to show me her house in lovely Italy. The countryside is BEAUTIFUL, and her house is so charming. I think it really suits her. Although the rest of my day has been free of mental rages and messed up memories, I can't help but wonder what in the hell is going on? I don't remember anything before 2 years ago...
Maybe this is trying to tell me something? Maybe I'm supposed to be dead? Why else would that thing try to kill me. I don't know...but I want to find out everything before I die.